Why wasn’t God fixing me?

#Tired #Woman


I wasn’t feeling it.  Honestly.  I was tired of trying to keep it all together and I wanted God to fix everything in my life that needed to be fixed.  I wondered how other women were able to look smart, act cool and always project a positive attitude irregardless of what was going on around them.  Why couldn’t I be like that?  Why wasn’t I better at juggling deadlines at work, supporting Nate’s extra-curricular activities (I didn’t want to say chauffeuring him to and from) and being there for my friends/family when they needed me most?  And as for my writing – shouldn’t I be spending more time putting pen to paper and getting my books out there once and for all?  Why couldn’t I be like “X” or “Y” or even “Z”?  What was wrong with me, and why wasn’t God fixing me into what I was supposed to be? 

Can you relate?  Have you ever felt like I was feeling?  I hope it’s not only me but one of the things I love best about my relationship with God is that He always answers me … even when I’m whining instead of thanking Him for all of my blessings.  So there I was stupsing and wallowing in self-pity, and He takes me back to the second chapter of one of my favourite books.   

Take a look at what He tells me via the powerful words of Rachel Olsen (which I have shared exactly as she wrote them) and which I am passing in turn on to you.  Ladies especially, it is hard sometimes but let’s remember we are unique, we are one-of-a-kind, and we are all wonderful children of an amazing Father who loves us unconditionally.  We may each have different skill sets and different purposes for being here on earth but it doesn’t matter because that’s what makes being a child of God that much more special.  So let’s shake off any envy or lust which the devil may have placed on our hearts and let’s move forward together – united, as one body of Christ and forever acknowledging that Our God is Real!

Competition or Mission?

By Rachel Olsen (Excerpt taken from God’s Purpose for Every Woman, A P31 Women’s Devotional – see more details on this book on our Help for Life’s Journey page)

For we are God’s masterpiece.  He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so that we can do the good things he  planned for us long ago.

Ephesians 2:10 NLT

Do you ever look at other women and compare yourself to them – compare what you have to what they have, or what you do to what they accomplish?  I know I sometimes do, and every time I make that comparison I come up short.  Either I’m not as pretty or not as smart, not as rich or not as popular, not as energetic or not as organized, not as creative or not as productive.  If you can relate, if you too often feel inadequate, then let me let you in on a freeing truth.  God didn’t create us to live someone else’s life.  He gave us each our own mission, and He’s gifted us uniquely for it.  When I keep my eyes on the Lord and His plans for my life, what others are doing or how well they are doing it becomes irrelevant.  I don’t have to compete because there is no competition for the role of Rachel Olsen on this earth or in the Father’s heart.  There is no true competition for your role, either.  You were specifically knitted together in your mothers’ womb by God Himself with purpose and care (see Psalm 139:13).  No one else has the exact same combination of personality traits, spiritual gifts, and life experiences as you.  You are one of a kind, and you have a mission only you can fulfill.  Ephesians 2:10 says it this way: “We are God’s masterpiece.  He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so that we can do the good things he planned for us long ago” (NLT).

I can say with confidence that no one else can be your parents’ daughter or your siblings’ sister.  No one else can be your husband’s wife or your children’s mother.  I believe that there are specific roles for you to play in your church and in your community.  You were destined for these roles – nobody can fill them like you!  While I don’t know the specific designs God has on your life, I know they are good and worth pursuing wholeheartedly.  But you won’t discover them by envying other women or accepting their mission in place of your own.  Ignore the competition.  Better yet, be happy for their success!  They are no threat to you.  Just keep your eyes on the Lord and keep asking Him to bring about His good plans for you.

Dear Lord, I believe You have satisfying plans for my life and You’ve gifted me to accomplish them.  I ask You to reveal them to me and bring them closer to completion.  Convict me, Holy Spirit, when I begin to experience envy or feel the need to compete with others, but to love them.  In Jesus’ name.  Amen.



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Barbadian mother and lover of laughter; story teller and best-selling author; happy to follow God's lead and to live my mantra: "you've gotta be a rainbow in the lives of others when it rains."

One thought on “Why wasn’t God fixing me?”

  1. Only last night there I was comparing and complaining and God dropped into my spirit – you and I “got a good thing going on” . The words to that chorus spoke to me then – “My Jesus and I we’d got a good thing going on, satan is on my track and he wants to turn me back, but Jesus and I we got a good thing going on. I smile because I could not laugh out I was on the bus. I Love you God.


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