Lord, why am I irritated???


Eli answered, “Go in peace, and may the God of Israel grant you what you have asked of him.”  She said, “May your servant find favor in your eyes.” Then she went her way and ate something, and her face was no longer downcast.
1 Samuel 1:17-18 (NIV)

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The story of Hannah, first wife of Elkanah, is found in 1 Samuel 1. Before reading further, get your bible out and visit a bit with Hannah or if preferred, you can click on this link and sit with her online: story of Hannah.

Hannah was an amazing woman who had lots (and I mean lots) going on in her life. Let’s analyse 1 Samuel 1:1-20 to get a better picture.

  • He had two wives; one was called Hannah and the other Peninnah. Hannah was one of TWO wives.  This meant that even though she didn’t have an ‘outside woman’ situation she certainly had an ‘inside woman’ problem.
  • Peninnah had children, but Hannah had none.  And Hannah really really, like really, wanted to have children.
  • Because the Lord had closed Hannah’s womb, her rival kept provoking her in order to irritate her. This went on year after year.  We women can be cruel to each other sometimes; deliberately so, especially when we are familiar with a personal circumstance. Why again exactly? And why keep digging it in year after year after year? Does provocation for a positive family life make? Absolutely not.
  • Her husband Elkanah would say to her, “Hannah, why are you weeping? Why don’t you eat? Why are you downhearted? Don’t I mean more to you than ten sons?”  Elkanah loved Hannah but he just didn’t understand what she was going through aka sometimes men mean well but they just don’t get it all of the time.
  • As she kept on praying to the Lord, Eli observed her mouth.  Hannah was praying in her heart, and her lips were moving but her voice was not heard. When the going gets tough the tough get going. However that does not mean we pick up the phone and bemoan our situation with all of our girlfriends.  No, no, no.  We can be going through the biggest trial ever and praying fervently in our hearts without anyone else learning about our situation through any actual dialogue. Yet God knows what is in our hearts; He will hear us.
  • Eli thought she was drunk and said to her, “How long are you going to stay drunk? Put away your wine.”  I personally didn’t follow this line of thought because I talk to myself and to God out loud – like constantly – but I am not drunk. Why did Eli assume Hannah was drunk? Was it a cultural thing? Hmmm ….
  • “Do not take your servant for a wicked woman; I have been praying here out of my great anguish and grief.”  Anguish and grief. Two of the biggest things to lay on anyone’s heart, far less a woman who has no children, is being taunted day in and day out by another woman in her very own household (and who should honestly know better) but yet her loving husband does nothing to resolve the conflict.
  • Eli answered, “Go in peace, and may the God of Israel grant you what you have asked of him.”  This was all Hannah needed to hear from the man of God. There was now hope in spite of a seemingly hopeless situation. It had been proclaimed.
  • She said, “May your servant find favor in your eyes.” Then she went her way and ate something, and her face was no longer downcast.  Hannah had prayed and gotten reassurance that God had not forgotten her. What does she do next? She moves on and lets God do what He needs to do. In other words, He’s got this!
  • Early the next morning they arose and worshiped before the Lord and then went back to their home at Ramah. Elkanah made love to his wife Hannah, and the Lord remembered her. So in the course of time Hannah became pregnant and gave birth to a son. She named him Samuel, saying, “Because I asked the Lord for him.”   Let the people say amen … and take that Peninnah!

I love a story with a happy fulfilling ending and my key nuggets from these verses may not be the same as yours but where am I right now? I am praying like Hannah to my Father; my lips are definitely moving fervently and my heart is anguished (no grief here though) yet I am holding on to these three thoughts:

  1. God will grant me what I ask of Him (if it be His will of course)
  2.  I will be peaceful while I wait and not be anxious or disagreeable or whiny
  3.  The Lord WILL remember me

If you are like Hannah, I will be praying for you even as you pray for me. May the God of heaven and earth grant you what you have asked of Him, and may He always dwell peacefully in the depths of your heart. Have a great week.

When the bull had been sacrificed, they brought the boy to Eli, and she said to him, “Pardon me, my lord. As surely as you live, I am the woman who stood here beside you praying to the Lord. I prayed for this child, and the Lord has granted me what I asked of him. So now I give him to the Lord. For his whole life he will be given over to the Lord.” And he worshiped the Lord there.
1 Samuel 1:2-28 (NIV)

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The sky is our only limit; look up!

I am so surrounded

chariots of fire, Elisha's servant
Source: www.rhemawordforyou.blogspot.com

“When the servant of the man of God got up and went out early the next morning, an army with horses and chariots had surrounded the city. “Oh, my lord, what shall we do?” the servant asked. “Don’t be afraid,” the prophet answered. “Those who are with us are more than those who are with them.”
And Elisha prayed, “O Lord, open his eyes so he may see.” Then the Lord opened the servant’s eyes, and he looked and saw the hills full of horses and chariots of fire all around Elisha.”
2 Kings 6:15-17

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One day I was studying a devotional based on the Armor of God and the above passage was one I had to review after reading 2 Kings 6. Having read much of the Old Testament before, it was strange I did not remember this particular story which spoke to my heart.  Here’s why.

The Facts:

  • The city was surrounded.
  • The servant was confused and afraid.
  • Elisha was sure of the unseen in spite of the seen.
  • Elisha prayed.
  • The Lord opened the servant’s eyes.
  • The hills were full of horses and chariots of fire all around Elisha.

Our reality:

  • Sometimes we are surrounded, with no way out.
  • This makes us confused and afraid.
  • We focus on what is seen, making our situation so scary and overwhelming we can’t possibly recognize the unseen.

Our hope:

  • We will pray to our Lord.
  • He will open our eyes.
  • We will see that the hills of our lives are full of horses and chariots of fire.
  • We will not be afraid.

I know for a fact that this message found me at a time when I needed it most i.e. it was not a coincidence and there’s really not much more I can add other than to say: “may your eyes be opened, and may your hills be full not only of horses but of chariots of fire.”


Photo by Gale E



He is not here; He has risen!


“On the first day of the week, very early in the morning, the women took the spices they had prepared and went to the tomb. They found the stone rolled away from the tomb, but when they entered, they did not find the body of the Lord Jesus. While they were wondering about this, suddenly two men in clothes that gleamed like lightning stood beside them. In their fright the women bowed down with their faces to the ground, but the men said to them, “Why do you look for the living among the dead? He is not here; he has risen! Remember how he told you, while he was still with you in Galilee: ‘The Son of Man must be delivered over to the hands of sinners, be crucified and on the third day be raised again.’ ” Then they remembered his words.”
Luke 24: 1-8 (NIV)

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Imagine going to the funeral of a dear relative or friend. You watch them lower the casket into the ground. You say goodbye through your tears. The next day you go to put some additional flowers on the gravesite and to reflect quietly on your own. As you approach you can see something is terribly wrong. Wreaths are scattered all over the place and freshly turned soil is everywhere. There is a big hole in the ground. You hold your hand over your heart to keep it from jumping out of your chest as you venture nearer and look down.  There is nothing there.  No coffin, no body, nothing. What would you do?

I have no idea what I would do.  For sure I would not be able to sleep at night for a very long time so imagine if I had been the one to go to Jesus’ tomb with the women … and as for seeing two men in gleaming clothes too? I done faint away and pass out aka bring on the smelling salts.

But I hold these particular verses very dear especially on those days when things are tough; when everything goes wrong and what should have been right is still wrong. Those are the times when I reach out to take hold of Luke 24:1-8 and tell myself: “Girl, Jesus is risen! He conquered death and is alive so hello? He’s got your back!”

So how do we move out of the dark shadow of the wilderness into the light? How do we make it from today to tomorrow without having that nervous breakdown or out-of-body experience? Well for starters, we refuse to let the devil keep us suffocated under the details of daily living. We refuse to let him make us forget that Jesus is not dead but very much among us. We strongly grab on to our rope of faith and hold on tight, tight, tight. We continue to look for the signs that show how much God loves us; things like a beautiful blue sky or wonderful yellow flower. But most of all, we do not ever – ever, ever, ever – look for the living among the dead.

Happy Easter! May God continue to bless us all, now and forever. Amen.


“The great gift of Easter is hope – Christian hope which makes us have that confidence in God, in his ultimate triumph, and in his goodness and love, which nothing can shake.” ~ Basil Hume

“Do not abandon yourselves to despair. We are the Easter people and hallelujah is our song.” ~ Pope John Paul II